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Lion heart?

Yeah, right.

I’m such a chicken, I can’t do anything right. I nearly did. I nearly said what I wanted to say, but I bottled. Great. Just fantastic. I’m never gonna make anything happen at this rate – and it just makes me more frustrated and sad. This sucks. Real bad.

Got accommodation for next year, but now I need to come up with the money for it. Jesus, I never realised it would be this difficult. Life is so fucking hard – and I already have enough to deal with. I wish my Mum would just let me get a loan. Maybe stuff would be easier that way – I don’t care about this ‘debt’ – it’s pretty much non-existent to be honest. Ugh. I don’t need this.

Today was... interesting. I think I might start to like my Fridays now. Although, note to self - be more punctual. Ten minutes before I leave is not the best time to have an argument with my hair. Felt stupid being sat by myself – also, why do I have to sit so weird in chairs? It does not make me look cool in any way – it also makes my backside go numb beyond belief.

Mum just rang. Great. Now I’m in tears. Definitely no loan. I just don’t need this right now. I’m just fed up with everything.
I don’t wanna write any more. Later.